do wild things always run?

They say, "Don't try to tame a wild thing"

.... I think I may be a wild thing.

The caged feeling comes all too quickly.

I am getting tired of being a "wild thing".

Is it possible to ever be tamed without losing the feeling of freedom?

I think so.... but I don't have the slightest idea of what that's like.

Natural Submission maybe?

Something so right that I don't even notice when its happening.

Maybe I will wake up one day, realize that it's happened,

And love it completely.

Work

I had a conversation about work last night.

not my work per say... just work in general.

How many people are doing there dream job?

Not many.

I don't know that work was ever intended to be anyone's dream.

Obviously some people like what they do a lot more than others...and I suppose some people really do have their dream job, but who says your occupation has to be what you do?

When I graduate I plan on doing lots of things that I love....while my job may be simply what pays the bills.

This morning I was talking to God and decided to read Ecclesiastes 3 and I found that the Lord has a lot to say about work...

"What gain has the worker from his toil? I have seen the business that God has given to the children of man to be busy with. He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, he has put eternity into man's heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end. I perceived that there is nothing better for them than to be joyful and to do good as long as they live; also that everyone should eat and drink and take pleasure in all his toil- this is Gods gift to man. I perceived that whatever God does endures forever; nothing can be added to it, nor anything taken from it. God has done it, so that people fear before him. That which is, already has been; that which is to be, already has been; and God seeks what has been driven away. Moreover, I saw under the sun that in the place of justice, even there is wickedness and in the place of righteousness, even there was wickedness. I said in my heart, God will judge the righteous and the wicked, for there is a time for every matter and for every work. I said in my heart with regard to the children of man that God is testing them that they may see that they themselves are but beasts. For what happens to the children of man and what happens to the children of beasts is the same; as one dies, so dies the other. They all have the same breath, and man has no advantage over the beasts. For all is vanity. All go to one place. All are from the dust, and to the dust all return. Who knows whether the spirit of man goes upward and the spirit of the beast foes down into the earth? So I saw that there is nothing better than that a man should rejoice in his work, for that is his lot. Who can bring him to see what will be after him?"

The Happy List

1. 501 Arthur Restaurant- Restaurant owners who make an effort to help the people in the community where their business is located. (P.S. I licked my plate last night because the food was so good and the owner and his family saw me and thought it was hilarious. ..haha oops)

2. The song "You don't know me" -Ben Folds ft. Regina Spektor

3. Plum Pudding scented candles

4. Winning concert tickets on the Radio

5. Modpodge and old book pages

6. The lime-fig perfume at Bliss

7. Empty frames from the Salvage Yard

8. Going to Remedy to get a muffin and a glass of milk

9. Freckled Faces

10. Hot Chocolate and Baileys

11. Anne of Green Gables

Nice to meet you, heart of mine.

It is a strange thing to be awakened to one's own heart.

I thought I knew it all along.

Everyone says the heart is deceiving but I never realized to what magnitude.

Sometimes it is incredibly hard to get to know oneself.

I can't exactly go get coffee with my mind and ask it what it thinks of things.

I can't call my mind on the phone and coerce it into spilling it's philosophies, its feelings, it's emotions.

So I am faced with the opportunity, the privilege (considering the fact that I believe myself to be made in the likeness of The Lord), of getting re-aquainted with myself, without the faintest idea of how to go about it.

Anyone care to shed any light?

I am a walking garbage can....caution: hold your nose

This week I have had an influx of self discovery.

1. I am filthy. A sinner to the core. And I don't deserve grace.

2. It's okay that I don't have it all together.

3. Trying to be/look like a "good Christian" is futile.

4. It's not okay to generalize my sin and hide behind grace.

5. My pride and arrogance could easily be the death of me if they are not kept in check.

The good news is.....my Redeemer lives.

Balance

Show me where.

Show me when.

Show me who.

Show me what.

When all things around me are amidst change where do I turn for the constant?

"I will turn to the mountains...for you are there. I will turn toward the valleys for there you reside. I will turn to the oceans for there your power is. I will turn to the skies for there is your majesty. I will turn to the Lord for he is my refuge."

I hate that change makes me question everything. I know questions are healthy but I hate confusion. Confusion is not of the Lord. God give me peace of mind about the places you want me to go, the people you want me around, and the things you want me involved in. You never change. You remain the same.

Mmmmhmmm

Oh thank you GOD for wind and chill and fall. Thank you God for bike rides that make your legs turn to mush. Thank you God for the smell of coffee and yes.. the smell of gasoline too. Thank you God for hot chocolate and kaluah. Thank you God for friends, vulnerability, canceled classes, happy tears, rye bread, and old buildings.

Thank you...just...Thank you.

Orange, Yellow, Brown, Leaves, Bonfires, Crackle, Rain, Wind, Ahhh

I am so excited about Fall that I could just JUMP OUT OF MY SKIN.
And I'm not gonna lie, I kind of like the rain.